Entry 6 β’ November 6th 2025
Dear diary,
I haven't written in here in a few months... I haven't been around system-wise for a while, which kind of stopped me from writing since I guess my headmates did not want to fill in which is all good. I kind of split someone off or whatever so now I'm ever so slightly different. π» Cheers.
I've been going to my appointments and such, I had another physio thing and now I have it frequently... I have to be quite careful with my exercises as my joints keep experiencing subluxation. I've been going on small walks every day when I can, I also started using my cane full-time since I've gotten worse physically. The cane helps me a lot. I usually use it for joint support, balance support and also to lean on when I feel like I'm going to pass out. Very useful, I'm glad I've gotten used to it now... I used to be kind of embarrassed about it. Mainly because people used to stare or whatever. Doctors might also give me a wheelchair and crutches too. Some days I can't walk so... It'd be very helpful. We'll see though. I got my Freedom Pass too, which lets me take public transport for free. Big Win for Patient.. I also am applying for more disability benefits. My care-coordinator is helping me... It takes a while to go through though. Oh, yeah, I also have a cardiologist.... But the appointments are very few and far between. Healthcare here is verrry slow, but at least it's free.
My mental health has been decent. Despite the obvious yk.. . issues.. that can't really go away. #autisticschizopilled . I have another psychological assessment thing in December I really don't remember why lol. I've actually come quite a long way this year. I'm coping a bit better... Feeling better more often than not. I've been comfortable. It's nice, simple. It also helps that I've been feeling more "normal" recently. I still have a long way to go with my healing, but I'm still proud of myself. This time last year, I was in a terrible state, was literally in a psychotic episode - so it's nice to know I've been getting better compared to the past.
Anyways, health updates aside, I celebrated a few things in the past months and I wanted to talk about them since they were nice... β₯οΈ
β Yuun's Birthday
The 8th of September was my boyfriend, Yuun's birthday. I wasn't fronting when the day occurred, but from what I heard, it was a really good day. We went bowling together, which I ended up really hurting the next day but it was fun, I heard. I think he took pictures of the funny pfps we had in game, I vaguely remember my headmate choosing to put his phone up with a funny image to the camera for his picture β it was some cat I think. I don't remember much else, but we went to the arcade afterwards. Then we went home, drank alcohol and ate food. I think we had Taco Bell? It was really good. We also had cupcakes and candles and stuff. It was pretty good..
β 5th Anniversary
On the 23rd of October, it was mine and Yuun's 5 year anniversary of dating... This was something I actually was present for, lol. He had a dentist appointment in the morning, but it was alright since he came back and we hung out together. We got coffee and some breakfast and ate it together. Then, we went out for a long walk, I wore the ring he bought me for my birthday last year... We held hands the whole way, and talked about our relationship and how much we loved each other. We came home and ordered some food, then we ate together and drank some celebratory Malibu & coke, hehe. We stayed up late together playing video games and watching shows. I wrote a really long paragraph to him about how much I loved him and about how I loved our relationship. We've been going strong for so long, and I'm so happy.
He is the only one for me, my number one, my lover and my best friend. He's supported me through so much, and I have always done the same for him. He knows me better than I know myself, and I truly can't wait to spend another 5 years with him, and then another after that γ and so forth... βͺ He's everything to me, and I can always picture myself staying with him until the end. I love him, always. 23.10.20 forever and ever.
β Halloween
The most recent of the holidays, and the one I remember the most of (#dissociative). Real talk, it was one of the best Halloweens I've had in a long time.
During the day, I went out to get some things for a party (pumpkins, alcohol and Halloween themed snacks), and then went out to get sushi for lunch. It was sooo yum and I enjoyed it so much, sushi is a massive comfort food for me. I did some digital colouring to pass the time; always very nice, I love art stuff. When it was time to get ready for the party I got dressed into my costume which was an asylum patient. I had some drinks and we played lots of music, some was FNAF songs which was really funny because I knew almost all of the lyrics [ex FNAF kid moment lmao], and when I was tipsy enough it was time for pumpkin carving. We bought our own pumpkins so we carved our designs which honestly? I thought it up on the spot. I decided to do one of those "dumbass pumpkin" ones with the buck teeth and a tongue. I ended up making it in a way that the tongue fucking moved when you shook the pumpkin it was hilarious I got Yuun to film me doing it... π Yuun carved a Ghostface design on it but he ended up getting drunkenly bored and started carving small holes into it until it looked like it was eaten up by a caterpillar. After a bit more drinks and a lot of stupid yapping, we clocked out for the night and slept as soon as we were in bed.
Our pumpkins now sit outside and are slowly melting into the grown day by day. They look even more terrifying than they did the day they were carved.
^ Pictures, because why not.
So yeah that's about it... From what I can remember anyways. Hope everyone reading had a good Halloween too, if you celebrate. I'll try and update next month but tbh if nothing cool happens or I just straight up forget or alternatively I stop hosting again then... yeah it might not come. LOL. Well, these are pretty much just for me anyways. Memory issues are a bitch so having some kind of cute diary helps. Also helps map out the positives in life... or something.
Thanks for reading. That's all... Byeee...
οΌ Patient 13.